To Cry?

This is how I feel right now:

Shall I invite the tears?
The tears that build up in my heart.
The tears that build a well of pain.
The tears that make me wonder why.
Shall I embrace the tears?
The tears that you purposely place within me.
The tears that will fall, like the friendship we once had.
The tears that will never be taken into account.
Shall I live with the tears?
The tears that I have to carry on my own.
The tears that I thought will taste of joy.
The tears that really only understand me.
Shall I finally cry?
For you to hear my burden,
For you to share my weakness,
For you to tell me ‘it will be ok’
I think it’ll be better if I just cry.

Heard It All Before...

'Heard it all before [heard it all before], all of ya lies, all of ya sweet talk, baby this, baby that, but your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now, see I had to shut you down [I had to shut you down]. Played the fool before [played the fool before], I was your fool, I believed in you, yes I did, yes I did. But your lies ain't working now, look who's hurting now, see I had to shut you down [I had to shut you down]'...Remember that song from back in the day? Sunshine Anderson really knew what she was talking about when she sang that song. She sang what the majority of girls/women are crying about. What these girls/women are crying about is usually coming from the same situations and mistakes. Guys can be 'dogs' FACT! But its up to us ladies to pick up the signs, to be more vigilant. I don't mean you should start becoming reserved and start believing that ALL guys are the same; so you automatically push them away. Because NOT all guys are jerks, believe it or not; you probably have heard THIS before, but there are a few...RARE, but there are a few good guys out there, who know how to treat a lady like the Queen she is. Believe me, I know...I caught one of them. I believe I'm blessed :) But anyway, it ain't about me. I'm just saying...come on now, why do us ladies tend to fall for the SAME lines that these 'guys' drop at us? Like seriously, we fall into the trap over and over again, then we end up crying or cussing that guy like a week later...Do we ever learn? Don't we get sick and tired of this stressful cycle? I mean if you've heard it all before...WHY DO YOU STILL GO THERE? Ok I'm not going to excuse myself, because I've been guilty of always falling for them tricks and end up not getting what I want. With these 'chat up lines', certain guys feel like they have control; that they've got it in the bag, got you in the palm of their hands. Then they got you acting like them string dolls that you control and drop you whenever they like. We know the one major thing that most guys are after...yes the S word lol. But by falling for these pick up lines, you're offering it to them on a table 'here you go...dinner is served, help yourself til' you're full'. It's not right, because when you give in..guys do talk and will start labelling you as a 'whore', even though both you and I know that ain't true. So enter wisely. Don't be too fast.
Another thing though, has anyone realised that some guys only prey on those who ALREADY have a boyfriend or husband? Why is that? Why do they make it harder on themselves? I believe some guys view it as a challenge, they like a challenge, because again they'll feel like they are powerful and if they can get a 'taken' lady, then they can get any lady! In some situations, it may be true, because some girls are weak and this is why some cheat, because they too nice to say no and give in to temptation. I guess no one is perfect. But those guys that go for you when you are already taken and they KNOW it, they have no respect for you OR your boyfriend. I've had a few of them situations where I tell the guy I have a boyfriend, and they reply with things like 'I could be a better one' or 'He can't treat you the way I can'...I think those responses are pathetic. How do you know you can be better and treat me better than my boyfriend can. In fact who told you I wasn't satisfied with what I have already. I'm fine thank you. If i thought you could do better, I would've waited...but I didn't. AND where were you when I was single HUH? A friend of mine told me that she knew a guy that liked me. Alright, so get this, once he told her he liked me, she told him I was in a relationship, and they replied with...SO! See, some guys don't think before they open their mouths. I don't blame those who have been successful in the past, but those 'easy' girls that have made them successful in that department don't exactly make it easy for the girls who have sense! I understand that its hard to resist temptation and we all make mistakes, but its all about self-control! And if the guy says they like you and want to be with you just like that...you need to think about that one, because they HARDLY know you, they haven't even thought about getting to know you first, why? Cause they only want to know one thing and that is the physical information! Oh yeah, one more thing you ALL may have heard at least twice in your life lol...'I'm just trying to get to know you...' ARGH! That one annoys me to the core! What? After 4 months you're still trying to get to know me? Which part of me don't you know yet? It's all a load of rubbish. If you hear that line from a guy, please do yourself a favour and MOVE on, cause ain't NOTHING going to change. You're just wasting your time. You don't want a guy to string you along, while he's getting what he wants and you're just there for the ride. It is no fun. And it isn't exactly fulfilling for you. You've heard the chat up lines, you've heard the excuses, you've heard the lies...I think we should stop falling for them and have some dignity for ourselves, show them that we ain't easy and if they want us, they'll have to work harder and come harder than those stupid chat-up lines...cause we've heard it all before :)

A Mile Behind The Smile

A mile behind the smile…all is said in the statement. You go a long way, before the happiness is achieved. Yep, that’s me. But who knows if the happiness is real…maybe the smile is fake. Maybe, its just not there yet. I mean I should have the realest smile you’ve ever seen, because I have everything. I mean when you have God, you have everything. God is everything. But the way you choose to live determines your happiness. Sometimes I have the ice-cream, but I choose the wrong topping... That’s not going to satisfy me. I’d cry. See, sometimes I know what the right choice is, but for me, I like to test the waters a little bit, not knowing that that test can become the biggest exam of my life. Waters become waterfalls. Waterfalls become a storm. I have to find my way out. In finding my way out…I forget that the only route that I need is ‘the way, the truth and the life’. Twists and turns. Getting lost. Not understanding the map route of the purpose of my life. Heck, I can’t even drive yet, so I gotta long way to go.

So I’m standing by the pavement of life. Watching the cars go by. Not knowing where to go, while I stand and watch them go by, wishing I was in that driver’s seat. But no…I have to work harder. It’s true. Life ain’t easy. Easy ain’t life. There’s gonna be diversions, there’s gonna be traffic lights, there’s gonna be congestion charges. All of the above. Just gotta make it init. There is a smile at the end of the mile. It’s just waiting to be worn…

What Is The Motive?

...reason, purpose, aim, intention, thinking! Every person has a motive in life. A reason for their actions, a purpose to establish, an aim to match their objectives, an intention to put to action and thinking with what they possess.

I've always had a motive behind what I write, but each piece I write has a different meaning, maybe to inspire, or maybe to just hit home! this is my first blog, it's new to me, but I just love to write, and that's old to me...what you see is what I know, and what I know, is what you may have experienced or thought about.

Ever seen the film 'Motives' with Shemar Moore and Vivica Foxx? It's actually quite a deep film I must say...I recommend you watch it if you haven't. If you like thriller with a hint of deception, this is your film! But what I'm trying to get at is the fact that each character had a purpose, a motive behind their actions, they all had one thing in common...to get what they want!

I WANT to be able to speak my mind, for others to listen or to read and to just see where I'm coming from. It may inspire you, it may make you think, you might debate on it, or it might not affect you at all...but I've spoken my mind...that's my Motive :)