Thursday, 9 September 2010

I Wanna Be That Girl

I wanna be that girl that you see for the first time, and your eyes immediately connect with mine. For you to feel like there is no other one for you, for you to feel that yes, everything is gonna be okay now. I wanna feel that feeling of knowing you can always count on me and know that I always got your back. No matter what situation, what circumstance, what problem or issue, you know that I'll always hold you down. I wanna be that ride or die chick, I wanna be your pride and joy. I wanna be the one you call, when you feel a tear coming, the one who hugs and caresses you 'til you fall asleep in the comfort of my arms. I wanna be there when you feel things are getting hard, when you're feeling stressed and you feel the whole world is on top of you. I want you to know that I can make things easier and take some of the load that you're struggling with. I want you to know that you're not alone; I'll be a part of you, with you and watching over you, just to let you know that it's all good. I wanna be the girl that buys you your favourite things, event or no event; just to show you I love you every second of every breath that you breathe. I wanna see you smile, showing those 32, knowing that it was me who caused that happiness. Your smile is what I wanna see, because it melts me inside and makes me fall even deeper in love with you. I wanna be the one you come home to, the one you can tell about your day; the ups and downs, the jokes, and how good it feels to be lying in my lap. I want you to feel how much I missed you every time you are away from me and how proud I am that you're making something of yourself and how proud I am to call you my man. I don't wanna be 80 or 20...I wanna be 100% for you. I want to be the girl that stands by you no matter what, to show you I ain't a materialistic girl; I'm not here for your money, I'm here for your heart, because love is what I want to show you in every way possible. I wanna be the girl whose cooking you love, whose heart you cherish, whose mind you appreciate. I wanna be the girl you look at and think 'I'm so blessed to have this lady as my woman', to feel wanted, to feel beautiful just by the way you look at me. I wanna feel goosebumps and butterflies in my stomach when you touch me and whisper in my ears that you love me; mind, body and soul. I wanna be the girl to hold you and make you feel like the man that you are. I want you to know that I will never disrespect you, cheat on you or belittle you, because that isn't in my job description. I want you to know that I will respect you, love you unconditionally, and make sure you feel good about yourself, because that is my job description and what I signed up for, when I accepted you as my man. I wanna be the girl you introduce to your guys, the special person in your life, the woman that your family adores, the one you know you can trust without an inkling of a doubt. I wanna be the girl that prays for you day and night, asking for God's protection over you, to bless you and to guide you in each step that you take. I want you to feel that we are a unit and nothing, I mean nothing will ever separate us, because our love is strong and no man and no substance can break that. I want you to know that your heart is safe with me; that I'll handle it with care, look after it like my heart depended on it. You need to know that you mean the world to me. I wanna be that girl in your life.

Friday, 3 September 2010

Here I Stand?

Here's a question you hear ALL the time...CAN GUYS AND GIRLS JUST BE FRIENDS? My answer to this was always 'yeah of course!', NOW I only think this is partly true. But then I guess it depends on the situation concerning both of you. How you know each other? Your past, present and future? And your REAL feelings towards each other. Things can get real complicated between a guy and a girl, when both people are not honest with each other. And yes, there is always a reason as to why people can not open up to each other, this makes it even more difficult and make you question yourself....'WHERE DO I STAND?' There are quite a few scenarios in this case:
1. You and your ex broke up like 5 months ago, but find that you're still close and every now and then flirting occurs or you just find that you guys really talk a lot. Does that mean- you still have feelings for each other? there's a chance you may still get back together? or you just happen to be really friendly with each other, because you know each other so well?
2. You met a guy through your friend and you find that you guys get on so well and you have a lot in common. You do a lot of things together and talk like all the time. What's going on you think? Does that mean- you like him/her more than a friend? you only see him/her as a friend but you have a feeling that they want more? are we secretly going out?
3. You're close friends with this girl/guy and you've developed feelings for this person and you have a feeling they feel the same way too, only thing is...they're in a relationship. Does that mean- he or she is likely to confess to their feelings, if any? their relationship isn't going well at all? you're reading into things too much? you feel like you're the bit on the side?

WHERE EXACTLY DO YOU STAND? It's very frustrating isn't it!

The funny thing is if you do not have feelings for someone, it's not as hard to tell that person as much as it is to tell them you DO have feelings for them. It becomes a misery when you pretend you know where you stand with this particular person, especially if you do have feelings for them and you want more, but because you are not sure if they feel the same way too, there's no progression and you're stuck in that miserable spot! AND then to make it worse, you won't do anything about it; you become a mute, because you don't want to 'ruin' things...which things are you ruining? A good friendship? To be honest; it really isn't a good friendship, because you are pretending that things are okay, that other person may also be pretending and you both may be holding back something great. If you're both friends, you should be able to communicate effectively with each other, able to share feelings and emotions, without there being any fear of the friendship ending. If the friendship ends, maybe it was supposed to; after all 'there is a time and purpose for everything'!

A friendship can be defined as: 'the cooperative and supportive relationship between people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis'. As far as I'm concerned; this confusion of where you stand is a time of need that needs to be addressed. You can't be living in a world of 'what if'. You can not help the way you feel and once you confess these feelings, you may find a burden has been lifted off your shoulder. If you do not know where you stand, it really isn't fair on you; because for all you know your 'supposed' friend could be leading you on; making you think there is something more. The sooner you know your grounds, the better.

I'm sure we've all been there...having feelings for someone and not being able to tell them for whatever reason. It gets depressing after a while, because all you're thinking about is that person and 'what could be?' You get that feeling that it'll be great if you two were together and you just wish that other person could see it too. Until things are out in the open, you feel like you're at a stand-still; but you don't exactly know where you're standing. Is it nearer to the side you wish for, or the opposite? Besides, standing in a spot for ages gets tiring after a while. After a while you get tired of standing, your feet start to hurt and you just want your bottom to hit a nice comfy chair, so that your feet can rest and you feel relaxed. If you don't put your feelings out there, your feet are going to ache; and what's worse; you don't even know what grounds your on!

I think we need to stop being afraid, open up our feelings and know that its here, that we stand.